Owning My Own Power

Have you ever had your eyes opened to situations where you had both eyes sealed shut, or thought that must have been what they were, once you finally opened them and saw the complete picture of what you were missing all along? Good or bad, it is the reality of the picture that often proves to be a very positive outcome in the end. However, one must remember that the outcome in order to be positive, must be seen with a very clear picture, the truth of the matter. To be blunt here, that... more times than not... sucks. Recently, I had a friend, {Yadda} tell me to stop depending on anyone to get me through what I could do alone. Knowing all along that I truthfully own my own powers, with the ability to achieve much, it was easier by nature to have someone guide me through circumstances and issues. It's like the bird in the bush and always having a friend in there with them. Sometimes it is just easier to have someone who will take the control away from you, thus making the decisions, and you simply following them. It is but just a simple protocol when allowed. Regardless of my nature, It is when that person in my life, who I allow to be doing the guiding and directing, becomes less than a human being, becomes deceitful, cunning, and all of a sudden disappears, hides from the world to cover up their behavior, which in returns adds to this list, coward, that after a while the truth of the reality sets in... I have boosted yet another's ego and in return I have been hurt. I'm an emotional eater as I have stated here when I first started this blog. So, imagine a month of being alone here after months of speaking to another every single night, to the point of being sent to bed at an always given hour. Imagine the trips to the kitchen cabinets or the refrigerator time and time again, trying to feed what seems to have been added to my other lists of addictions, codependency, which doesn't say a hell of a lot about submission. To be shameless, uninquisitive, loveless, and uncaring is a human beings four failings that will make me go away from them. No fool is more foolish than one who eagerly expounds their learning to others, while failing to follow it themselves. On record now, I have been on my program 3 days and lost 5 pounds. Say yeahhhhhhhh!